I have always been scared of getting pregnant. My mum’s pregnancy with me was a mistake, and ever since she told me that, I have been worried about getting pregnant with my boyfriend. I have never shared my fears with any of the girls at escorts in London as they would probably think that I am a bit nuts. To make sure that I don’t get pregnant, I take both the Pill and use condoms when I am with my boyfriend. It is way over the top, but you never know. In many ways, I feel that I am really insecure despite working as elite escorts in London.
When I was younger, I did not used to worry about it so much. However, since I got older, I have realized that there are a lot of unhappy single mums out there. Some of the girls here at London escorts have got pregnant accidentally, and ended up with kids. I am not sure that I would like to be in the same boat as many of my colleagues at London escorts. It would be nice to be married with a family, but I do not want to be a single mum at all.
My mom was single when I was younger and we seemed to have struggled for everything. I do not want to struggle at all, and it was one of the reasons why I joined escorts in London. One of my girlfriends back home worked for London escorts and she did well. I thought that I could do exactly the same thing and make a good foundation for myself. In case anything went wrong in my life, I would not have to rely on just myself. It seems like a funny thing to say, but I have always wanted to be in control.
My fear of getting pregnant has to do with control as well, and I know that. I am sure that I am not the only girl at London escorts who is worried about getting pregnant, and if I spoke to my friends at London escorts, I would probably discover that many of them feel the same way. But I feel that if I speak to my London escorts friends, I would lose control and perhaps even show my weaknesses. I am not a person who finds letting go, or sharing my life very easy at all.
Sometimes, I feel that I want to talk to somebody about my life, and then I change my mind. It is like my personal life is my own and nobody else. I have noticed that a lot of the girls at London escorts keep themselves to themselves. Is that a good thing? I am not sure it is and I think it would be good to share. One of my friends from outside of escorts in London who works in an office, says that things are very much the same there. At the end of the day, perhaps there are parts of our lives that we are not prepared to share with anybody. I am very much beginning to suspect that is the truth.